Three weeks ago, I spent the day with a chef I hold in such high regard that it is hard for me to put words to the experience. But I know this — after spending over 4 hours at Estela with Chef Ignacio Mattos, cooking together in celebration of his much-lauded cookbook, Estela, I left with a beaming high that I can only compare to that of a wide-eyed child on Christmas morning.
I felt alive, inspired, and deeply connected. Connected to the experience, engaged in asking questions, and absolutely riveted to learn Ignacio’s process and approach to a dish I’ve feasted on more times than I can count. I felt joyful and embraced within a community that is very dear to me. I also felt centered and confident as I posed my questions to this world-renowned chef, which evolved into easy back-and-forth banter as Ignacio and I chatted about the indelible imprint cooking has left on us.
I had this very clear moment where I stepped outside of myself, ignoring the team of photographers, videographer, assistants, and kitchen staff, hovering around us. I took a moment to honor this feeling that no one could feel but me — it is invisible to the outside, an inner thrill, a buzz, a tingle. Call it what you will, but this racing feeling was palpable to me. Internally, I was struck by the realization that I found my place in a chaotic world that can be filled with unknowns or uncertainties. I felt embraced. Happy to be doing what I love, to have access to people I so deeply admire, and an outlet to exercise my curious mind and culinary endeavors.
Ok, so yes, this sounds super corny but each of our paths are riddled with doubt at times and I, we, don’t always know we are on the right journey. It is in moments like these that we need to stop and celebrate those reminders. I ask myself all the time …
Am I spread too thin? Do I need to pick a lane? Who am I? What am I? What’s next? Well, I am an interior designer, BUT not really a practicing one. I am a home cook and a cookbook author, BUT I am not really a chef and am in the kitchen developing recipes far less than I’d like to be. I write BUT I am not really a trained writer. I style, BUT I am not really a working stylist. I am a creative director, BUT what does that really mean??? I love to create beauty BUT am I pulled between so many worlds that am I not really excelling in any one thing — do people know what to make of me?
Anyway, we all have it. A voice asking those recurring questions, the BS, that blah blah blah we keep telling ourselves. And even though we know, sometimes, that this inner rambling isn’t true, there is often a weeeee little inkling of — maybe?? My point is, on THIS day, inside Estela with Ignacio there was NONE of that. There was celebration, a tangible, all-consuming moment of knowing I AM SOOOOO FORTUNATE TO DO WHAT I LOVE!
Ok, now back to Ignacio and his brilliant cooking and exceptional cookbook. You may or may not know, but Ignacio is not only the culinary genius behind Estela, but has also opened the amazing Café Altra Paradiso and Flora Bar in New York. This James Beard nominee for Best Chef is serving up his long-awaited debut cookbook, Estela, and to celebrate, we made his famed endive salad which is bold and bright, simple and layered, and even has an element of surprise. That’s a lot for one salad to hold but it really has it all — 2 cheeses, dark toasted bread, crunchy walnuts, high acidity from the orange juice and zest, and flavor-building anchovies all hidden beneath layers of crisp endive which serves as the perfect shovel for all that umami goodness.
Last week, I shared the recipe (MAKE IT) and video we shot together and now I’d love to share with you some of the profound things Ignacio and I chatted about. We all want to connect to something in life, right? Whether it be a person, a meal, a community, a career — at our core we ALL want to connect. I found so many similarities between Ignacio and I. Namely, why I cook (it gives me purpose and I am a caretaker at heart) and what I found through cooking (a community of like-minded people who share the same values) — and his response was nearly the same. When asked what drew him to the kitchen, he shared this, “It was exciting to discover a unique tribe of people who run kitchens. Beyond this, I have been familiar with nurturing people and have always been fascinated with this gratifying feeling.” I mean, isn’t that the holy grail! Our day together might have begun with myself being a little nervous and intimidated but there is nothing like common ground to level the playing field. Our day at Estela ended super silly and relaxed, with Ignacio and I discussing our favorite restaurant which is sadly now extinct — Franny’s. It was funny to me that the food at Franny’s is what, hands down, initially inspired my cooking 10 years ago. Here I am, full circle with a Chef who was equally inspired by the simplicity and quality coming from that kitchen but who in my opinion embodies those very same qualities — of course in his own unique way. Full circle. Seeking alignment. Connecting. Appreciating small moments. Finding your tribe and nurturing others. That’s what it’s all about!
Please grab yourself a copy of the Estela cookbook, make this ridiculously YUMMY endive salad and experience the exceptional flavors I have found in Ignacio’s cooking.
Read my inspiring interview with Ignacio below to learn about his favorite cooking moment to date, the ingredients he can’t live without, and what he makes for friends and family at home on a night off.